Last night, when I had the thoughts of you keep running in my mind..
I couldn't help but teared.


Ever since the last time,

I never knew crying would cause me such heartache.


I feel so hopeless,
I've lost myself.. in you.
And now.. I can't find myself back.

I've loved and lost.
We've had our happiest and saddest moments.
Feeling your warm embrace.
Feeling wanted.
These are the things I'm longing for.

I am going back to square one.
Fuck.

Counting down.. 18 days til I turn 22. :)

20012008

A date that was worth celebrating.
Now it doesn't mean anything anymore.

Deep inside my heart, I hope that it still means something to you.
Cos for me, it still does.



-On the other note, back to work tmrw! URGH!

The sky is beautiful tonight...

I wonder if you are looking at the same moon too...

I wish that you were right by my side..

*sigh*

Update

What have I been up to these days? I have a very healthy routine.
I get up at 8 or earlier everyday.. go work.. go home.. watch chinese series til 8..
go bathe.. eat dinner.. watch chinese series til 10.. wrap my own ciggies..
go downstairs to smoke.. call my maam.. by 12 I'm asleep.
Damn good right.
But I still feel like I don't have enough sleep everyday...
And I'll be down with a flu every other day.. so irritating.

I feel really happy at my work place. Its not like a typical law firm.
Although there are alot alot ALOT of things to do these days.
Its like we have our own party everyday. Its really a very cosy place to work.
And most importantly, there are no politics in the office.
Oh yes, I MOST PROBABLY will be joining them to Bangkok for the annual company trip.
Hee Hee Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... Yay!
I got lots and lots to shop for.
Girls, wanna make ur order? :p

I am trying to go back next weekend...
Hopefully I can get the tickets. Mum doesnt want me to waste money to go back.
But I told her that I have it, and there's nothing to do here.
Which is true. Tell me, what the hell to do here?
Freaking boring man... hmmm.. I still got no friends except for my colleagues.
Saddening right.

On the other note, I am healing.. slowly but surely.
I am quite proud of myself though.
Of course there are times when I would feel like I'm all alone and cry and all..
But I am coping it real well.
Oh, I dreamt of him last night. I wasn't too happy about it though..
I really don't know what I will do if I ever bump into him one day.
What do I do? In a way, I want to bump into him.. but in a way I don't.
*sigh*

Okay whatever.
Looking forward to CNY!
Cos I get to be home for about 1 week?
:)