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All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go

'Cause this pain I feel, it won't go away

And today I'm officially missing you

.

.

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I've fronted long enough to know

There ain't no way

And today I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially...

.

.

All I do is lay around, two years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just 3 weeks ago you were my baby

Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it's safe to say, baby,

safe to say that

.

.

I-I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially

.

.

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby

But I see that's something I just can't do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can't find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially...

From the other side of the island.

Went for the interview yesterday. It was alright I would say. After the interview

I went downstairs and realised that it was pouring heavily. I just stood there like

everyone else did.Then Law Firm guy called me and said that I'm probably still

downstairs as its pouring.Asked me to go upstairs to pass him some documents

as he said chances are very high that they're hiring me.

We were done with the documents within 10 minutes.

Then everyone at the office was setting the christmas tree. Just stood there and

laugh at their jokes and sillyness. They're all really fun people. Even the boss.

Helped them hang some "balls". Hahhaha.

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Anyway, I just realise something today. After a good round of tears.

That its not worth it. And he's just another asshole by the roadside.

I was reading the old posts of my blog.

And I realise that there are so many occasions when I feel

fucked up.. and he is just the way he is now.

It doesn't make much difference.

Before this, I thought that we could still be friends right.
Cos I really don't want to break up in such a manner.

But turns out to be, he's really being a asshole.

So not man at all. Cis.

I will be so doomed if we ever get back, and he reads this. :) If only.

Heh. You know, I might change my mind tonight.

Well, I am trying my very best to let go. And I guess I just can't do it here.

Will be back home tomorrow noon. And then I'll decide.

I really really like the company.. but I can't stand being here.

How?

Happy 21st Lynn!

-Sorry for the late entry :p

Wishing you all the happiness & love in the world

Good health & wealth.

May every year be better than the last

The day is finally here. And you're legally legal now.

Let's go register to vote? :)

Love you lots!

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I will be going Spore this Wednesday. I've made up my mind to go for the 2nd interview.

I've thought about it long enough. Its not about me alone anymore, I can't be so selfish.

I have to think about my family. And its really not worth it for me to let go of the job because of some jerk.

I know I will regret it if I don't go for it.

I might be miserable being all alone there, but looks like I don't really have much of a choice now.

Just when I thought that I want to stay here for good.
Law Firm called me up today.. and asked me for 2nd interview.
If I were to go for this interview... I should be getting the job.
But the problem now is, can I do it?

I am so.. fucked.

Almost everyone is expecting me to work there already.
But I can't tell them that I don't want to work there because I'm
not mentally stable cos of the BU.

I can't make up my mind. I can't make up my mind.

:(

This is not good.

In another news, YLY is leaving to Florida tomorrow. Gonna miss her so much.

And I really really miss him. :(

Home.

I think I've had enough here. I will be coming home today.
I should have did it 2 days earlier.
Something happened last night which made me realise that
I cannot be here all alone any longer.
Although I've tried.. but I still don't know if I'm mentally prepared.
First, I need to get myself back..
And I need my family & the girls.

I am still in shock. And I feel very very disappointed.
Never thought that someone could be so mean after all these time.
*sigh*

Pieces don't fit here anymore..

I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.
.
Well I can't explain why it's not enough,
Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, pieces don't fit here anymore.
.
You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.
.
Don't misunderstand,
How I feel,
Cos I've tried, yes I've tried,
But still I don't know why, no I don't know why
I don't know why.. why..
.
Well I can't explain why it's not enough,
Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, pieces don't fit here anymore.
.

This is gonna be damn hard. So hard that I really don't know how am I gonna get through it.
Believe me when I say I'm trying.

Less than 12 hours I'm here.
And I feel like going home already.
*sigh*
Maybe I made a mistake of coming here.
Maybe this aren't meant to be at all..

I'm tired... I'm really really tired.