I will know when the time is right..

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It will be a jam packed these coming 2 months.
I listed down the amount of people coming back next month..
and the events that will be happening. I think its almost full.
The free time I have after my exams will be spent mostly with him.
So much catching up to do, and he'll be back only for about a month.
Come January, I'm back to being all alone again.

Well, I haven't really got into the fact that he'll be going off again so soon.
I'm trying hard not to think of it, just yet.
Problem is, nobody knows how long he is going to be away this time.
He said, he'll want to come back at least once a year.
Does that mean that he'll be away for another 4, 5 years or more?
The past 5 months was hard enough to bare for me.
*sigh* I don't want to let go, and I don't wanna see him go.
But I don't have a choice. Someone asked me to pursued him to stay when
he comes back. I said to her No, I can't do that. Even though my heart is
asking him not to go. Its his life, and his career & I want the best for him.
I'm doing all that I could, I just hope he understands his part as well.
If 'WE' really do work out in future, I don't want to regret not supporting
him in building up his career. Well, I guess I come in close 2nd after his career.
:) I just hope he understands that, whatever he does, I'll be there to support him.

And for the past week, I missed him much more than ever.
Counting down to another 4 weekends.

Boo.

Holidays are over. Tomorrow's the last day.
Then its back to classes, classes and exam.
Boring. And I have not finished my assignment due on Monday.


Have to go now to pick the girls up.. laters.


* 31 more days til my baby gets back!

You made my day..

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So much for making decision, crying over nothings for the past couple of days.
You made it all right again with just a phone call.
Things are getting better, I couldn't be happier.
Seems like updating each other about our lives within the last 5 months wasn't easy.
That particular phone call was never ending.
But it was a damn good one, just like how it was before.
That, made me miss him even more.
4 ½ more weeks! I really can't wait.


P/s: Thank *YOU*..for whatever you've done for me.
Chill out, don't stress k.. You know you can always count on me.
All you need to do is just ask open up.. Love yaaaaa.

I've made up I've made up I've made up my mind.

Now its just the action.. and the right time. :)

Its not you, its me?

They always say, if you love someone, let them go.

Loving someone is seeing that person happy.

So in my case now, who should let who go?

Let the past be buried..

.:Edit:.

True enough. Another person from my past rolled in.

This is getting scary. While talking to someone last night over the phone,

a person from her past sent her a msg on msn. She said its my fault.

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Being sick last weekend only made me lazier.
I've been so lazy to go class, go out or just about anything at all.
I tend to get all stuck up myself and get moody. Not good.
But anyways, life does goes on.
I've tried not fretting over things that had happened.
Its out of my control.. so I might as well just let it be.
At the mean time that is. I just have to be patience
and wait for the right time.

Today, I chatted with someone on msn, someone that I
have not spoken to for over 2 years.
I figured that I've actually forgotten about the past long time ago..
The hatred and anger I have towards her are all gone.
I've grown up, and I've learn not to have enemies.
Oh and.. a long lost friend called me the other day.
I saw the number on my phone caller id, and said to myself..
Who's number is this.. it looks damn familiar.
And it struck me! Its someone I have not spoken for sometime too..
Luckily I didn't pick up and ask who is this.
She's someone really nice, and we've been through
alot together during school days.

Anyway, I hope to meet up with long lost friend soon.
We sure have alot to talk about, lotsa updates!
Also, I've been wondering, these 2 persons were
once someone close to me, and at the same time this week,
they both reappeared.. I wonder what else's coming back, into my life.
As you know me, I don't like surprises. Pfft.

* P/s : Jen Ai, I almost got into an accident last night. No thanks to you.
Urgh! But I am GLAD that you're fine now. Will see you soon okay.
Take good care babe.

I never hoped for this.

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I am very very very tired of this.

Please help me,

Stop all my sufferings.

I'm afraid I might kill myself, soon.

Fucked up.

Stupid haze.
I knew this was coming but didn't know it'll be this bad.
I've been on my bed the whole day and night yesterday.
I felt so weak and couldn't do anything.
Stupid flu, fever, sore throat and cough. Urgh.
Spoiled my whole weekend.

Pups.

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I want one of theseeeeeeeeeeeeeee!