Something I've been missing out.

It been a stressful week.
It hit me hard looking at how hard life is turning out to be.
Nothing seems to be going right.
Emotionally.
When I woke this morning, I felt fresh, although I had only 3 hours sleep.
The morning seems to be fine until some point.
Where everything just fucks up.

Maybe I had been thinking too much.
I cannot stop thinking! I'd think of everything and anything.
Even when I was trying so hard to sleep last night, I kept telling
myself to relax and put everything aside, I need some rest. But to no avail.

*sigh*
Few days ago I had a weird dream.
I dreamt that I was getting married, but the place was gloomy and dark.
I remembered me insisting on changing a few dresses and make-ups
but the groom was nowhere to be seen.
The best thing is, my grandpa and grandma was there.
That part kinda scares me.
After that dream, thoughts of my grandma keep going thru my mind every now and then.
Then I realise how much I really really miss her.
That very day I woke up from that dream, I cried 3 times.
I don't know why.. somehow I just felt like letting it out.
:(

I had this feeling that this year is going to be a really really bad year for me.
Someone once told me that I'll be in my happiest in '08, or was it '09?
Argh, heck with it.
I need this year to be good...

*The song I just updated was the song that made everyone tear
during my cousin's wedding. This is dedicated to my beloved grandmother.