HollieMollieCow.

Everything so just so freaking nice and cheap here.
Haven't really got the chance to buy things yet.
Will definitly be going shopping tomorrow cos they kids won't be around!
Have been waiting for the 2 of them to come back from school at 2..
Then wait for the youngest boy to go take his afternoon nap..
And thats when we sneak out... muahahaha. Damn bad rite.
Anyways, tomorrow's Saturday already.. I'm so excited... :))))))))))))))))))))))))
Seriously, I really don't know how to react. Something is wrong with me.

I'm still alive.

Will be heading to the Museum with both my younger cousins later.

But no, I won't be seeing the bf until Sunday. :(

The sales here are crazy and things are really really cheap.

Without converting..that is.

Can't wait to go shopping and get some new shoes & bags. Heh.

Gtg now.. laters peeps.

Happy Bday to my one and only!

Would like to wish my mum a Happy Happy Birthday..

Thank you for bringing me into the world..

Thank you for the everything that you've given me..

Thank you for standing by me through everything..

Thank you for your constant scolding, now I'm exactly like you.. in a good way!

The list would go on forever..

Just so you know that you mean the world to me, you're my number 1.

I love you like no other and you're my heart & soul.


Will update more from Spore, I hope. :)

Pangs of loneliness..

For some reasons suddenly I felt extra lonely. I'm feeling very lost. I miss the companionship. I can't find nothing to do and I have no one to turn to. Even if I have, I don't think anyone would understand my situation and what I'm currently going through. Its like everything and everywhere I want to go now, I have to do it all alone. This is so not fun.

I've tried going on as usual, but somehow someway it will eventually backfire on me, and I would feel worst than before. Now, at this very point, I really don't know what to do. I feel like I don't belong anywhere.

I've made a big mistake. I grew too attached to him for the past 6 months. And all of a sudden, he has left me all alone here makes me feel like there's no place in the world for me. I really don't want to feel this way. Its hurting me too much deep inside.

At moments when I feel the change in my condition I would literally be in tears. I cannot be alone, I have to be around people. With that, I don't think or even realise my current situation. I can't even sleep like I used to. I slept at 6 this morning, and I woke practically every hour.. then forcing myself back to sleep, finally waking up at 12. I've also been losing my appetite. And this is doing no good.

This is affecting me so much that I want to run and hide somewhere. I'm taking an advantage of the company that I have. But still, it isn't enough for me. I guess now I'm contented and totally restless.

I want to scream my lungs out.

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Holy crap. Its 5 in the morning and I'm doing my blog crap. Shit. I am freaking tired but am not really sleepy. Guess I have to force myself to sleep yet again. I did it last night. Its really really difficult.

Btw, I know this sucks. If you ever stumble across my page, please get off. I will continue doing the crap tomorrow. Its time for me to hit the sack and meet my boy in dreamland cos that's the only way I can to see him. That boy worked a total of 13 and a half hours. Thats only on his first day, theres more to come. I wish I was there to comfort him.. give him some tlc and maybe some massage. Hey, that makes alot of difference ok. Ok, I must stop. I miss him terribly. And its not helping that I know he's working his ass off and I can't do anything.