Question

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Should I hang on to it.. or should I let go ?

Lost.

I've been trying to break down your walls

But I don't know how to get through

You say that you want me

You say that you need me

But baby, I need more from you

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You've gotta take my hand

And lead me to where you are

You know I'll follow

To show me the way to your heart

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It's quiet here tonight

There's a light burning far away

It burns in my heart

In the rain, in the dark

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I'm not bending tonight

But I'm twisted and turned and broken down

I'm starting to know the sound

Of nothing and no one and yet everything

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I don't understand

What's slipping through these hands

You'd think by now I'd know when to let go

So here I am

And I'm throwing down my one last hope

Here I am

Won't somebody stand, stand by me..

Procrastinating

I have 2 assignments already..and its only the 3rd week of class.
And I have not started anything, yet.
I don't dare to think how many more would be coming in the next semester.
Damn. School sucks.-


People from Sweden are slowly going back to their respective homes.
Which of course, makes me life miserable because I would be bored to death in the next coming months.
I enjoyed their company so much. We keep each other entertaint.
I had lotsa fun helping my cousin plan her wedding.
It was all over in a just a couple of hours.
I couldn't really enjoy that night, cos I was so freaking tired.
Ran here and there, help her change, go up and down of the hotel like no one's business,
woke up really early in the morning, rehearsal and making sure everything is alright.
I didn't even have the time entertain anyone what say eat.
By the time I got back to my table, the food was already cold.
I lost all my appetite. And I over-drank with an empty stomach.
But it was all worth it. Everyone really had fun.
There were lotsa compliments saying that it was very well organised.
Thank goodness.
The one I'm looking forward next is my other cousin sister's wedding in December.
I can't be the bride's maid again because they claimed that one can't be a bride's maid for too many times if not one will have problem getting married in future. Crap.
But I have no complains. Its alright.
I just help her do other stuffs for that matter.
So many people got married/getting married.. so nice.

Anyways, its time to get ready for dinner.
Everyone was on diet before the wedding,
but now that it's over, all eating like mad.
Everyday lunch, dinner and supper without fail.
We will be heading to Sevenatenine for after dinner party.

Laters.
=)

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I miss my baby.

Its only been 2 months since he left.
There's 4 more to go.
Help - me.

22nd July 2006.

Sorry had been very very very busy. Recovering from the weekend madness. Superb tired but it's all well worth it.
Everyone had fun, I mean everyone.. from 2 years olds to 50+ were all on the dance floor. It was a small but grand occasion for the whole family.
I wish both Seven & Michelle all the best in the future and may happiness and wealth grow for them!

This is just like 0.0005% of the pics.

The BridesMaid, The Bride, The Groom and The BestMan.

The wedding entourage.
Ellie the Flowergirl, Ji Chern the PageBoy,
Me the Bride'sMaid, Hung the BestMan,
Michelle the Bride & Seven the Groom.




Jessie, Bro, Dad, Mom & Me.

Family portrait.

The BestMan & The Bride'sMaid.

I hate waiting.

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I have 3½ hours to kill before class starts again. Urgh.
Its not helping that the stupid traffic around that area are always conjested.
I finish first one during lunch hour..and the other one during off-work hours.
Go back to office and work over time la.. damnit.


Oh yeah, and the funniest story today ..
I've got KungFu class tomorrow. Wtf? I didn't sign up for a KungFu class weh.
*sigh*.. anyhow its okay, free self-defence class. (am trying to console myself ok?)
Will try to make excuse not to go. Gtg now.. laters!

Selfishness.

I hate it how some people can be so selfish. They just couldn't care less about other people's feelings.
I understand it if someone you don't fancy then its alright.. but this is towards someone you claim that you love.
You only cared about yourself, have you ever thought of my situation?
Will you have the heart to be mean and cold when you're like 58947537483 miles away?
I tried to be patient.. I tried to hang on.. I did everything that I could to get my mind off you..
I look forward to weekends just to speak to you, but the weekends never came.
You gave me hopes.. but you crushed them all..
You gave me empty promises..
I feel like you're a total stranger. And there's nothing I could do about it.

*

On the other side, my mom's sister's husband just passed away yesterday evening.
Mom and I went over to visit him in the afternoon and he passed away about 2 hours later.
He was still very conscious and aware about his surroundings and people around him.
We got a shock when we heard about it. It is very saddening. He is such a nice man.
~ R.I.P Uncle Teoh ~

This is the 2nd funeral I've been to within the last 3 months.
It saddens me, I don't like seeing people losing their loved ones.
Because I had already lost someone which I truly loved.
I still think about her from time to time, I still miss her like mad,
At times, I still wish that she's still around.
Well, this is life isn't it.

*

Btw, school starts tomorrow!
I am so not excited.
I have bought my school bag, pencil box, new pencils, erasers.. all in pink! [bimbo alert!]
Muahahahaha. =)

I don't know you anymore

I would like to visit you for a while

Get away and out of this city

Maybe I shouldn't have called

But someone had to be the first to break

We can go sit on your back porch

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Relax

Talk about anything

It don't matter

I'll be courageous

If you can pretend that you've forgiven me

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Because I don't know you anymore

I don't recognize this place

The picture frames have changed and so has your name

We don't talk much anymore

We keep running from the pain

But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

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Springtime in the city

Always such relief from the winter freeze

The snow was more lonely than cold

If you know what I mean

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Everyone's got an agenda

Don't stop

Keep that chin up you'll be alright

Can you believe what a year it's been

Are you still the same?

Has your opinion changed?

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Because I don't know you anymore

I don't recognize this place

The picture frames have changed and so has your name

We don't talk much anymore

We keep running from the pain

But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

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I see your face

I see your face

Baby fever.

My baby cousin brother is back from Singapore!
I miss that boy so much. . . he's such a nuisance.
I had to babysit him yesterday cos his parents wanted to go for a movie.
He can talk so well now, he follows everything you tell him to say. .
Anyway, its a good thing that they'll be back for a while.
Plus, my aunt's arriving from Sweden tomorrow.
So that I can have something to keep myself busy.
I can play with baby, play with my cousin sister, paint her nails,
gossip with my aunt, smoke with her, go shopping, whatever!

New chapter.

I figured that there were bad memories and bad posts in my last blog so I decided to change it.
Let the past be buried. Plus, things I wrote there were kinda dumb and I wish I didn't write that. Moving on the new chapter of my life.. things between me and Edmund are going on well.. I don't want to let anything spoil it. And the fact that he knows everything about my past and reads my blog, seemed like he didn't mind one single bit, or maybe he really doesn't mind. But I just don't want anything to remind him of my past especially some particular people which he really hates.
People would say, 'its only 6 months'.. but to me, its 6 long dreadful months!
He hasn't even been away for 2 weeks, but it seems like its been months.
The longest I've been apart from him was probably 3 days, maximum.
It seems like we can't live without each other. I hope nothing goes wrong. *crosses fingers*
Anyway, I'm starting class in July. I just can't wait to get something to do because the loneliness is killing me. I might start working next week, not too sure yet.